Fragile

          It’s a normal day; you do your usual routine and head to school. As you were going about your day, you hear something that kills you inside and have to pretend that you’re fine. You try to hold back your tears from falling and try your best to smile despite that stinging feeling in your chest. Finishing the day is the only thing you have in mind right now. But time seems to play a sick joke on you by going slower.

          You try to distract yourself by reading or studying. But you can’t seem to concentrate. You try to text your friends from another school but they didn’t reply to your texts. They might be busy since it’s obviously a school day. You feel hopeless at this point and you’re just really hanging by a thread as you keep yourself from breaking down.

          People around you don’t seem to notice your façade. You see that as a good thing so as not to answer any questions or face any confrontations. Until one person asks you if you’re okay and the wall you’ve been building slowly crumbles down. Your eyes become watery again but you can’t stop them this time since they’ve turned into tears as they fall from your eyes. Your friend tries to comfort you as you sob on her shoulders.

          You composed yourself as your friend patiently waits for you to tell her what’s wrong. As you were telling her everything, your eyes begin to water again. She comforts you and gives you advice and you’re glad she’s able to understand what you’re trying to say. It feels good to vent out all your bottled up emotions and have someone to listen and understand you. But at the end of the day, when you’re all alone laying in bed, all the pain comes back and you have nothing else to do but cry yourself to sleep.