Left Out

          You walk into a room full of people chatting with their friends and going about their normal lives. Looking for a seat wasn’t easy because of the people filling almost every space of the room; you finally spot one at the far end corner. You make your way towards the corner of the room, squeezing through the group of people catching up with their old friends and other people making new friends. When you’ve finally reached your seat, you heaved a sigh of relief and sat down. You scan your bag for your phone along with your earphones and plugged them in your ears, drowning the chattering voices with the music.

          You scroll through your phone so as to appear busy and to not look so awkward sitting there alone. Then there’s this sudden feeling that makes you think you might be making a bad impression of yourself to everyone. You’re scare that everyone would think you’re a total snob so you take off your earphones for a while and wait for someone to approach you first. A sudden rush of excitement overtakes your nervousness when someone takes the seat next to you and greets you with a smile. You asked for her name in the hopes of starting a new friendship.

          Asking for someone’s name might be easy, but starting a conversation isn’t, let alone keep conversations going. You go through your mind searching for possible topics you can talk about. When you’ve finally thought of a good one, you start of by asking a question, she answers with a smile, but her smile becomes brighter when she sees her old friends in the room. Just when you thought you’ve finally made a friend, you’re left along again. So you plugged in your earphones once more and detach yourself from the real world.

          The day went by in a blink of an eye, there was a slight commotion as everyone rose from their seats to leave the room. As you finished gathering your things, the room was almost empty. The sky was a bright orange when you left the building. By the time you reached home, it was already dark. After having a quick dinner and changing into your pajamas, you jump on your bed, closed your eyes and silently praying that tomorrow would be a better day before finally falling asleep.